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"No brake should be applied to passion ; when the appetites speak, they must be heard."
Marquis DeSade
littlewicked March 13th 1967 (Age 42) Female Nebraska
I am a 41 year old female, of average appearance I believe. I have a pretty open mind about most things and try to do my best to constantly further my knowledge about everything I can, including myself.
I find myself alone at this point in my life raising a son by myself, but believe it is better this way for him and when he is 18, my life will begin again. I do date rarely but my romantic life does not cross with my son's life, which means my boy will never meet the "boyfriends on parade" when they come about.
I prefer the kink side when it comes to my romantic life, I do not enjoy vanilla life as it were. I was married for 11 years, it did not end nicely but needed to end. Now I have learned to adore life in the simplest ways. I love the tactile sensations involved in kink, the discussion of options and knowing I have pleased the One I wish to be with.
I have had a few men in my life but only 2 really ring true in my heart. One was my first true love but lost track of later in life. The other I still speak to once in awhile and still find Him to be the most erotic and delicious Man I have ever met. Physically we were not together long, but in that time I learned more about myself that I ever had in life and I owe that all to Him. I learned that beauty is not in our eyes as women when we look upon ourselves in a mirror, it is reflected in the eyes of those who look upon us and express their pleasure. He probably does not even know I hold Him in such high regard but that is okay as He has His own life now. I can honestly thank Him for realizing what true love really is.
I hope to find more to do in my life and enjoy many normal things like riding on the back of a Harley wrapped around the strong back of a man clad in leather, going on a nice weekend Poker Run, the wind rushing thru my hair, playing a good game of pool or darts with a few good friends, and hitting the river boating in the heat with a few beers and buddies. I guess I am more of a tomboy, but do like to dress up once in awhile if given the chance. I have been called a strong woman before, but if truth be told i prefer to sit at the feet of a Dominant Man, to me there is no better place in the world. To feel his fingers in my hair as i lay my head on his thigh, it makes my world perfect.
All in all, I think I try to better myself at any chance, and further my knowledge on myself and life. I am more spiritual than religious and try to help others when I can. I figure if I can do well in this life and leave a good memory in others hearts I have done okay.
The true woman hidden deep inside of me that i allow so few see
"... remember Machiavelli, according to whom it were better to be impetuous than circumspect, because Nature is a woman to be mastered only by Him who goes to her whip in hand."
~ Marquis De Sade~
This is the woman that protects the submissive one within against society's judgement
"Lust's passion will be served ; it demands, it militates, it tyrranizes, it must therefore be appeased, and to its satisfaction all other conditions are totally irrelevant."
~Marquis De Sade~
"Certain souls seem hard because they are capable of strong feelings, and they sometimes go to rather extreme lengths; their apparent unconcern and cruelty are but ways, known only to themselves, of feeling more strongly than others."
~MDS~
"I have supported my deviations with reasons; I did not stop at mere doubt; I have vanquished, I have uprooted, I have destroyed everything in my heart that might have interfered with my pleasure."
~MDS~
Well hello there. Please let me introduce myself, I am a short, stocky and belligerant female. I have a tendancy to speak my mind no matter what the consequense, this tends to lend to many a heated discussion. I like to think I am just very passionate about some things although I am sure the reciepients of my opinion would tend to think otherwise. I do not try to prove myself better, nor do I see myself any more gifted than the next person. I am just simply put, me. I guess if you do not approve or enjoy my writing you can always eavesdrop on someone elses life if you prefer..
Some things I enjoy in life may be a bit off kilter for the "normal" but that's okay with me. One thing I have learned in all my years of being is that if I am not happy? Life is not very good for me until I am as close as I can be. Therefore I have twisted my point of view just enough for me to be happy at least most of the time. I have done alot of soul searching and finally realized that if you do not expect things, you are not dissapointed. I don't expect to win the lottery anytime soon since I am not an illegal, born in Iowa, or over 85 so everything I get has to be worked for. I have also learned that if you wish for love, you can always just settle for good sex....and then go home. Good sex can mean many things to many people but mine? Well my "version" for sex involves lots of leather, some sharp knives, a collar and leash, and a truly strong Man to tell me how it's going to be. Now please do not misconstrue that last statement as an opening from a desperate woman willing to do anyone just to get laid, on the contrary.... that is a statement form a very twisted woman that knows that over 75% of men would think I am "broken" and just need to be cuddled so my wounds heal. I enjoy the other 25%.
I love a Man who is also able to create the wounds that would serve as memories, not damaging only teasing of things to come. I prefer a Man that knows a woman loves to be kissed while her hair is wrapped around His fist and her head sharply yanked back, I love the feel of His teeth gnashing at my throat, and the feel of His flogger licking at my back. I would rather it goes a little more like this...."she awoke to hear a slight jingle and realized she still had her ankle chained to the bed. Rolling over she began smiling as she looked upon her lover who lay sleeping beside her. He had a beautiful tanned chest covered in the in the softest dark colored down with many a tattoo telling the story of who He truly was, she knew that although He looked like an angel He would soon awake and be the deliciously decadent Man who she had fallen for the minute she heard his voice. She even heard His voice in her head even when He wasn't around now, with every choice she made she questioned..."would He approve?","will I make Him proud with my actions?". Will I.......? (okay so good kinky smut is not my forte...so sue me!)
