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"No brake should be applied to passion ; when the appetites speak, they must be heard."
Marquis DeSade
littlewicked March 13th 1967 (Age 42) Female Nebraska
I am a 41 year old female, of average appearance I believe. I have a pretty open mind about most things and try to do my best to constantly further my knowledge about everything I can, including myself.
I find myself alone at this point in my life raising a son by myself, but believe it is better this way for him and when he is 18, my life will begin again. I do date rarely but my romantic life does not cross with my son's life, which means my boy will never meet the "boyfriends on parade" when they come about.
I prefer the kink side when it comes to my romantic life, I do not enjoy vanilla life as it were. I was married for 11 years, it did not end nicely but needed to end. Now I have learned to adore life in the simplest ways. I love the tactile sensations involved in kink, the discussion of options and knowing I have pleased the One I wish to be with.
I have had a few men in my life but only 2 really ring true in my heart. One was my first true love but lost track of later in life. The other I still speak to once in awhile and still find Him to be the most erotic and delicious Man I have ever met. Physically we were not together long, but in that time I learned more about myself that I ever had in life and I owe that all to Him. I learned that beauty is not in our eyes as women when we look upon ourselves in a mirror, it is reflected in the eyes of those who look upon us and express their pleasure. He probably does not even know I hold Him in such high regard but that is okay as He has His own life now. I can honestly thank Him for realizing what true love really is.
I hope to find more to do in my life and enjoy many normal things like riding on the back of a Harley wrapped around the strong back of a man clad in leather, going on a nice weekend Poker Run, the wind rushing thru my hair, playing a good game of pool or darts with a few good friends, and hitting the river boating in the heat with a few beers and buddies. I guess I am more of a tomboy, but do like to dress up once in awhile if given the chance. I have been called a strong woman before, but if truth be told i prefer to sit at the feet of a Dominant Man, to me there is no better place in the world. To feel his fingers in my hair as i lay my head on his thigh, it makes my world perfect.
All in all, I think I try to better myself at any chance, and further my knowledge on myself and life. I am more spiritual than religious and try to help others when I can. I figure if I can do well in this life and leave a good memory in others hearts I have done okay.
The true woman hidden deep inside of me that i allow so few see
"... remember Machiavelli, according to whom it were better to be impetuous than circumspect, because Nature is a woman to be mastered only by Him who goes to her whip in hand."
~ Marquis De Sade~
This is the woman that protects the submissive one within against society's judgement
"Lust's passion will be served ; it demands, it militates, it tyrranizes, it must therefore be appeased, and to its satisfaction all other conditions are totally irrelevant."
~Marquis De Sade~
"Certain souls seem hard because they are capable of strong feelings, and they sometimes go to rather extreme lengths; their apparent unconcern and cruelty are but ways, known only to themselves, of feeling more strongly than others."
~MDS~
"I have supported my deviations with reasons; I did not stop at mere doubt; I have vanquished, I have uprooted, I have destroyed everything in my heart that might have interfered with my pleasure."
~MDS~
The other day I was speaking with someone I had recently met and realized that dating is not as easy as it used to be for someone like myself. Most people consider their usual conversations to be silly things like "I love long walks by the lake, moonlit evenings, blah, blah, blah." My usual conversations contain sexual deviations as well as can-do's and will-nots. The usual "what do you like in sex" conversation came about and I choked trying to answer the question. He sat there smiling as I tried desperately to explain myself. I happen to be lucky enough to have found someone who also happens to have a nice kinky side. We began trading "likes and dislikes" and I came to the intense part of my lifestyle which some may call edge play.
I told him I enjoyed needle play, knife play and most blood sports, as well as asphyxiation just to name a few of my twisted ways. He apparently was not aware of needle play or what all it entailed so I tried to explain it to him. I explained how in this type of play you can place your head into a sort of "acceptance" or as I say ready yourself for each puncture and in turn your body answers with loads of dopamine and endorphins which make my body come alive and feel energetic for me intensifying the sexual gratification ten fold. It is not easy to tell someone who is not aware of these feelings how they can be a bonus. As a submissive into such things it is simple heaven for me, but many can be squeamish in even discussing it.
Needle play does not have to be all blood and gore, some of us adore the seductive side of it. I went looking for visual help to explain it to him and found these pictures.I thought it was the epitome of "beautiful". Many people do not understand me but some are willing to learn me, so in turn I try to "teach" them about myself. In a perfect world any person would be able to find the "perfect" mate, one who understands your needs and can fulfill your wants. You should be able to exchange information about each other's desires and find a suitable understanding or agreement without the normal "ewwww" or "you are just sick!" comments I get quite often.
Hopefully one day the population will understand that I am not part of a teeny tiny part of america that likes to put on a Halloween costume of sorts just to get my rocks off for the moment. I happen to enjoy my submissive side and enjoy it even more when I find a compatible partner who wishes for a submissive to treasure and play with, not a submissive to walk all over and use. I hope one day people will understand that there are zillions of us out there and what they think is kinky is just boring to some of us. Now all in all I do believe each to their own, and if you like what I like bonus, if you don't that is okay too, but god bless those willing to step into my world for there are too few "matches" for me. I have known only a few omg rock my world I will kiss your feet Masters at their craft and am very privileged to have known them. Bless them every one of them!!!
Disclaimer: Please do not attempt any of this without researching the pros and cons of needle play. It should always be safe, sane and consensual and SAFE!!! Don't be stupid!
loz February 21, 2007 01:49 AM PST I think this is a beautiful art in its own right... though for myself I'm not sure I could handle all those needles regardless of desire to try (not afraid of the needles per se, but the reality of them like that... hmm. dunno.). love the pictures, in any case.
you've made me think, re: dating stuff & 'those' conversations (I can relate, though in a different way). sparks some interesting contemplations :D.
