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"No brake should be applied to passion ; when the appetites speak, they must be heard."
Marquis DeSade







littlewicked
March 13th 1967  (Age 42)
Female
Nebraska

I am a 41 year old female, of average appearance I believe. I have a pretty open mind about most things and try to do my best to constantly further my knowledge about everything I can, including myself.

I find myself alone at this point in my life raising a son by myself, but believe it is better this way for him and when he is 18, my life will begin again. I do date rarely but my romantic life does not cross with my son's life, which means my boy will never meet the "boyfriends on parade" when they come about.

I prefer the kink side when it comes to my romantic life, I do not enjoy vanilla life as it were. I was married for 11 years, it did not end nicely but needed to end. Now I have learned to adore life in the simplest ways. I love the tactile sensations involved in kink, the discussion of options and knowing I have pleased the One I wish to be with.

I have had a few men in my life but only 2 really ring true in my heart. One was my first true love but lost track of later in life. The other I still speak to once in awhile and still find Him to be the most erotic and delicious Man I have ever met. Physically we were not together long, but in that time I learned more about myself that I ever had in life and I owe that all to Him. I learned that beauty is not in our eyes as women when we look upon ourselves in a mirror, it is reflected in the eyes of those who look upon us and express their pleasure. He probably does not even know I hold Him in such high regard but that is okay as He has His own life now. I can honestly thank Him for realizing what true love really is.

I hope to find more to do in my life and enjoy many normal things like riding on the back of a Harley wrapped around the strong back of a man clad in leather, going on a nice weekend Poker Run, the wind rushing thru my hair, playing a good game of pool or darts with a few good friends, and hitting the river boating in the heat with a few beers and buddies. I guess I am more of a tomboy, but do like to dress up once in awhile if given the chance. I have been called a strong woman before, but if truth be told i prefer to sit at the feet of a Dominant Man, to me there is no better place in the world. To feel his fingers in my hair as i lay my head on his thigh, it makes my world perfect.

All in all, I think I try to better myself at any chance, and further my knowledge on myself and life. I am more spiritual than religious and try to help others when I can. I figure if I can do well in this life and leave a good memory in others hearts I have done okay.

The true woman hidden deep inside of me that i allow so few see




"... remember Machiavelli, according to whom it were better to be impetuous than circumspect, because Nature is a woman to be mastered only by Him who goes to her whip in hand."

~ Marquis De Sade~



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"Lust's passion will be served ; it demands, it militates, it tyrranizes, it must therefore be appeased, and to its satisfaction all other conditions are totally irrelevant."
~Marquis De Sade~







"Certain souls seem hard because they are capable of strong feelings, and they sometimes go to rather extreme lengths; their apparent unconcern and cruelty are but ways, known only to themselves, of feeling more strongly than others."
~MDS~






"I have supported my deviations with reasons; I did not stop at mere doubt; I have vanquished, I have uprooted, I have destroyed everything in my heart that might have interfered with my pleasure."
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Monday, October 15, 2007
The last tears.....

 

 

   This poem is dedicated to the one man who truly managed to destroy me better than anyone in my whole entire life. Bravo! I do hope "you" enjoyed the tears and blood you caused, you worked so hard for it all. I have finally come to terms that "he" does not know what a man's word means, and will not be honoring any of his promises to make any of the damages he did here in my home "right". He has taken things that were not his and also left me in unimaginable debt. As a single mother this is unforgivable and I have only one thing to say to all of that. Kharma is a bitch S. and I do hope you know how to run from it.

   I have begun to heal and will learn from all of this and only pray that no one ever has to go thru the type of pain he dealt me. I am being strong and will continue with my life, my friends have done so much for me just by coming by and talking with me or calling. To all of those I left by the wayside because of S. I do apologize and beg for your forgiveness, you have my promise that will never happen again. This poem is a reflection of how far I fell before I realized he didn't care at all and I had to stand up and let hm go for good, there was too much drama and pain. I pray no one ever feels this low, if you do? Please know you can always pull up your boot straps and move on. Bottom line here is any man like this is a "feeder" and a "taker" and will not last long in this life living like that, just step away before they implode.

Not Enough

Not good enough to keep

Not smart enough to see

Not wise enough to know

Not interesting enough to speak

Not pretty enough to show

Not good enough to train

Not skinny enough to be attractive

Not soft enough skin to touch

Not cute enough to hold

Not nice enough to love

Simply just "not enough"


Posted at 09:46 pm by littlewicked

scott
November 26, 2007   08:16 PM PST
 
I guess i am just evil
loz
October 18, 2007   12:26 PM PDT
 
man, can I relate (thankfully not recently).

I'm glad your friends are there for you. either way you're strong, you'll make it back 'up'... I just hope it's sooner rather than later.

I also hope when it 'goes around' again, he will learn from it.

l.
x
 

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